Waited 4 U

Like a bearthday approaching
I waited for you
Blew every candle and wished for you to come
But you didn’t show
I know
Cause
I waited for you
For hours I stood soaked in showers
Of my own tears
Battled each thought careful not to manifest my fears
But they were here
And
You were there
In thin air
Escaping the things that were hard to bare
Running from the pain that was hard to wear
It hurt too much to face it
Thinking it would be better to erase it
Than to replace it
But ending up at the start
Because
You never embraced it
Finicky and fidgety
Limited activity
The mind is not one to waste
Time is
Consistently
infinity
like 8
inevitable
balancing the
lows to highs
like an edible
truly incredible
to take a trip
where
intuition serves the only clip
of life
I waited for you
To trust your senses
Welcoming this love like there is no fences
No guards to be brought down
No stopping for intermissions
I waited for you
To hear the sound and the echoes
Of the music
To act stupidly
in love
Like you’re shot by Cupid
But you didn’t do this
I know
Cause
I waited for you
For you to take the nutrients of the seeds I planted
For you to choose not to thirst in a life of famish
For you to take the strengths from the bonds that’s damaged
I waited for you
To open your eyes
To look within the mirror
And take off your disguise
I waited for you

(2018)