Rotten

I was decaying
I’m waiting on the right time was my excuse for delaying
Every playing I pushed paused on
Hitting voicemail to every call
when my phone rung
I was decaying
Learning that it was love I had mistaken
For pain
I chose
to be left out in the rain
Because I didn’t want to admit
To the things that caused you
a fit
Since it’s what you’d cuss about
Thinking back to the times
when I cursed you to shut your mouth
Or when you threatened to put me out
I know we were going through it
Empty bellies barely getting fluids
Love is missing
with
no appearances
from
Mr.Cupid
Arguments of stupidity
Ends with
Please don’t pity me
I know that I acted so selfishly
I was decaying
All
Without
even saying

(2018)